The problem is, I simply can't do it! I'm a multi-tasker and usually have no less than half a dozen things going on at once (whether physically or just in my mind). But I feel God calling me to a simpler life. Compared to the average family, we really have fairly simple lives. Then again, God doesn't call us to compare ourselves to others, he calls us to compare ourselves to Him. So I guess I'm starting a journey within my journey.
I know the first thing to go...technology. Not all of it. Just finding a balance. Facebook, Pinterest, crafting websites, Googling recipes. Although relaxing and enjoyable for me, they take up precious time that could be better spent nurturing my relationships, both worldly and Godly.
God is calling me to more time with him. Crazy difficult with a two-year old in the house. Difficult enough I haven't figured it out yet. Here are some words from Jesus Calling
"Seek My Face, and you will find all that you have longed for. The deepest yearnings of your hearts are for intimacy with Me....Do not feel guilty about taking time to be still in My Presence. You are simply responding to the tugs of divinity within you."
Taking time to be still in my presence. How necessary, yet how trying. Especially in a NOW society. The latest news, weather, social updates, games...we can carry it all in the palm of our hands. Convenient? Yes. Peaceful? No. And isn't that really what simplifying does...bring peace?
I want a greater peace in my life. I want to feel like I have all the time in the world to play with my son. So much is vying for my attention. I know playing with him is the of the utmost importance, but so many things want to take priority. The problem is, they not always important things...sometimes they are selfish things. (I know, mothers have to make time for themselves...that's not what I'm talking about here). But being torn between two subjects (Evan and whatever I'm trying to do) doesn't bring me any peace. It doesn't simplify my life. Yes, I can incorporate Evan into the things I want to do. But I also need to put away my own selfish ambitions to do what he wants. Play trains, blow bubbles, throw a ball. Not exactly exciting for me, but it means the world to him. It shows him he is loved and cherished.
On my quest to know God more intimately, I've also been reading a book titled Living with Less so your Family has More by Jill & Mark Savage. It's mostly in reference to finances but the overall premise is living a simpler life. Focusing not on what the world offers but on what relationships offer. It's a good read and I highly recommend it.
I guess it's time to wrap this one up. Evan is climbing all over me!! This blog entry feels like endless rambling? I'm just trying to share what God is doing in my life. I pray the ramblings make sense and God can use them to bless you.
Until next time,